You....

I fell in love with your laughter
The laughter that also sent gladness to my heart
I thought it was enough to just feel that way
To love you with my heart not my head
We were fine then
We laugh at little things simple things
We can talk about everything and be contented
I was really happy being as secured as your friend
You joke a while
And I took it as it is and laugh
Everyday that God made I look forward to hearing you
Listening to you was like a food to my soul
It always completes me, inspires me and made me whole
Then I could not bear it anymore and did not notice
The love that I wanted to hide
And I wanted to forget became uncontrollable
Your joke about it become intense to me
I asked you to stopped it coz deep inside I can’t hide it
I want it to be true as much as I want you to stop
You did not stop for you said it’s not a joke but true
I just laugh though I was uncomfortable with the set up
You made me feel each day that you truly mean what you say
I also made you feel that what you say is nothing to me
I wanted you to stop but I can’t stop you whatever I say
Then one lovely day I have told you what’s inside me
You said you are very happy and you wanted to talk to me
I said that was just a matter of fact and that It was nothing
Though deep inside I was happy knowing I made you happy
It started our roller coaster argument that you’re not joking
And my fight for you to let go
Now a year have gone and all that’s left to me is throbbing pain
And your deafening silence. . .
I am sorry with our friendship
I am sorry for what has transpired
We don’t hold our destiny
We don’t hold what’s the future offers




gigi 06.24.06